Well that was always going to be a hard post to write - and an even a harder one to follow.
I'm so thankful for anyone who's reached out. A kiss, a message, a card, a comment, a care package, flowers a knitted fish in a clear plastic bag - anything has meant so much to us. I'm also so thankful for my clients who have been so incredible understanding and supportive. I'm so behind on editing these amazing weddings I've been lucky enough to photograph this year. I hate letting everyone down but am doing my best catching up.
So we have so much going on in our lives.
New extension on our house - we're re-working all our living space. It's being plastered this week so getting to the exciting part of painting and final fittings! Can't wait to show you more.
Our beautiful Dave is currently disabled.. He's recovering from back surgery and we think he's got another back issue as his recovery has gone down hill - he's showing a few good signs again - fingers crossed - and is in no pain and very happy. He just can't walk at the moment. He's so cute though and we've renamed him Tiny Tim.
I've shot my first cookbook with the most amazing friend - it was the scariest yet most exciting project I've ever worked on. All images have now been sent off and I think it should be on sale in March time. I loved every second and met the most amazing women through it. The most delicious vegetarian cookbook is coming your way - Watch this space! She'll be shooting her own book next time I'm sure - her talent and photography is incredible. She is one of the loveliest, oldest friends I have.
And obviously all our day to day clients and work. Weddings, websites, logo's, illustrations, packaging, more food photography. At the moment life is just a bit too full on and stressful. But I am very thankful for it. I love working hard..
I just think maybe next year - not so hard.
Thank you again x
Posted by Wellies and Vogue at 12:54
It feels strange to back here writing. How is everyone?
So I think it's fair to say I lost the blogging mojo a long while ago. I think starting up my own photography business had a lot to do with it! I also guess that I've just been lost in a sea of work - having an incredible time and meeting amazing people - but just work and not too much in between. Or that's how it feels.
I was also planning on coming back to this space when we were lucky enough to have children. I thought it would be fun to start it up again - cute photos - new challenges - me as a mother. Instead our first taste of parenthood has gone spectacularly wrong.
We lost our babies. Twins born at 23 weeks and 3 days. Born on the 25th and 26th August. Yep twins with different birthdays. A baby girl and a baby boy. Or how I saw it my head corduroy in one hand and liberty print in the other. We conceived them easily and I loved being pregnant - they were two very wiggly babies. There is no reason for why it went wrong - for some reason I went into premature labour which triggered a series of very sad events. After 2 weeks in and out of hospital we realised there was no hope for them. I also became very poorly and it turned into a labour of saving me.
It feels nice to write about it. Say it out loud. For me I chose to keep our pregnancy quite - the day I was going to announce it on Instagram is the day it all went wrong. But now for me I want them to be known. I know that they will forever be the biggest part of my life - our lives.
I'm fighting to accept this has happened. That it can happen. And the saddest thing - that it's happened to so many people. I'm not sure if I'll breathe again until we have our baby but we're both getting on with our new normal. Our life after them.
I'm not going to go on. I just wanted to say it out loud. Find my voice again.
Posted by Wellies and Vogue at 17:04
So this is something I've been meaning to share for so long - well since November.. I got to spend the most amazing day with the lovely Miss Pickering at her incredible Flower School.
I honestly have always dreamed of one day having/living in a flower shop - I think it comes from my obsession over My Fair Lady when I was younger. Therefor having the opportunity of playing in Miss Pickerings perfect Stamford flower shop was incredible. Coffee and biscuits started the day in which we leant how to do arrangements, bouquets, button holes and my obvious favourite flower crowns!
The classes are small and very creative. You literally have a flower shop to play in with the incredible guidance from the one and only Miss Pickering - who not only is the best teacher but the loveliest human ever! I'm planting up my garden this summer as I now feel I'm capable of table arrangements to equal any Downtown Abbey set!
Keep your eyes peeled for her classes and find a friend to go with or just treat yourself to an amazing day.
Thank you so much for having me..
Posted by Wellies and Vogue at 12:47
Stoping and looking has been nice today. Hope you're all well x
Posted by Wellies and Vogue at 16:33